" It changes the way you perceive , was all I was told .
Yeah , it did just that , and in a way , ,,,,,,,,
well , you just cannot describe it .
nothing after , was ever viewed by me , in the manner it was before the change .
I never trusted Theater seats before , too many stories about stickies on them .
After , I never gave those seats a thought , i just plopped down on them with
a smile of anticipation of what would flow out of the screen before me.
I came for the show , not to worry about seating stickies .
I learned to relax my caution .
The Western Dogma ,, oh Christ , what can I say to that ,, it broke down ?
More as though it dissolved away from my conditioning .
more exact to state that the conditioning had been shattered and thrown out .
Freeing ,,, that is best for a description I suppose .
The ladies dark body , casting candle flame shadows against the shag carpet
on the floor , became the strain of young eyes , which left impressions
of a distant past life tribal custom ,,, where dance was a language and
Love the child of the Dance .
I heard once about the Crimson Clouds that swirl about the mind
while tripping , that these Clouds actually are the conveyor by which
you are slipped through tiny constricted holes , out of your mind , and
into the Ultra Universal Thought processes where ,,,,
the understanding of everything that ever existed is found .
" So it was a trip ,, a journey to find that ultimate truth ,
and the understanding of it ? "
To answer : " That was not the intent actually , the primal intent was
to experience the Trip ,,, I gave no thought where the trip would eventually
take me , or what may lay there . "
It was not a Journey of seeking any great knowledge or understanding ,,,
the intent was to simply experience the TRIP ,
what I thought I would see along the way , I guess i never really gave thought to ,
I was to Journey ,,, and that at the time was enough ,,,
Life was somewhat mundane for me ,,, I mean , little had I experienced ,,
we were too poor to do much other than Eat , shït , and complain about our lot
in life .
You may have heard it said : " Where one Journey ends , another begins "
Perhaps a bit true , perhaps not so much .
In my case , there had been no journey to end , we just existed , poverty
allows nothing left over to journey anywhere .
The only Knowledge I had, literally , was the useless false gossip that
we children were pummeled with in public schools ,,,
which in poor schools , ,,,,
well , the value is extremely defunct .
" Curtains do not close , and then reopen to become a new stage ,,,
there are no floodlights to light your way , no teleprompter projecting
a pre writen script for the Act you are to portray through your minds eye ,,,
and by the way , a minds EYE is a singular , Minds eyes is more proper to say ,,
and I think that is another part we have wrong in our Society ,
we perceive with one eye closed and one eye half asleep .
Where I was about to journey , would Throw open both of my minds eyes ,,,
and the billions of other minds eyes in my head as well ,,,
There is a dot in the center of the circle
the dot is the understanding of the All of our universal .
the circle around the dot , is made of the minds perceptions ,, ALL OF THEM
all the Minds Eyes make up that circle
every eye in the circle is looking at the dot , seeing all ,,, and understanding it .
This is a level of consciousness , that perhaps a few have achieved in this world .
What they missed while they were at that point of enlightened state of awareness ,,
was for every eye to turn 180 degree ,,, and look OUTWARD
to the Ultra Universal Thought Processes ,,,
to see and know , to understand ,,,
You understand ?
That just as you thought you reached the highest ,
if you push just a bit more ,,,
there , beyond ,,,,
exist ever more to perceive and understand .
I was reminded by one of the Watchers of something I seldom considered ,,,
when she stated : " Rog' , you are aware that for some , they never use their imagination to conceive the thought to use their minds eye ,,,
and ,,, have by that , left themselves in a position to never consider that they have a multitude of eyes within the mind to perceive with .
That state of mind is Lineal Consciousness .
Which is what I refer to as the consciousness of the prevalent civilizations
thought processing .
This particular Journey I was about to engage upon ,,,
was a first for me .
Light would guide if I opened enough to see it .
If I opened extremely wide , I would see it to the furthest extent imaginable ,,,
it would have to be met with full imagination applied though .
but there is no limit to imagination , for just as you believe you reached the end of
your imagination , you may imagine there is more to imagine and that
shall manifest a further discovery through imagining .
In Essence , there exist no time and space , which leaves no limits ,,, to imaginations wandering through out the universal.
I can swear to the truth of a fact I am aware of ,,,
and that is ,,,,
Within your being , is encoded a type of encyclopedia of all knowledge and
understanding of everything possible ,,,
Nigh , say it as it is ,,, OF EVERYTHING OF THE ALL .
You just are not apt to tap into that encoding within you , if you do not
imagine it to exist ,,, imagine it first ,, and that may prompt you to seek it .
Along the journey ,
The first indication you are coming onto the road, is that certain
" set in cement " perceptions you thought were truths ,,,
begin to slowly melt away and your eyes begin to see the Fallacy of them ,,
and that , if you are as I , can cause you to cringe at first , but that passes faster than it develops , for the Awe is so powerful ,, that you do not stop
long to contemplate the melting away .
Light-speed is exceeded ,,, thoughts ,,, those that are of the past , those that you thought were your make up ,,,, dissolve so rapidly ,, that you have no time to
keep up with each of them as they die away , and try to maintain
focus of what you are draining yourself of .
You understand that these need to be gone , and you must relax and let them leave ,, The ID must Die ( Frightening at first , until you realize it's a very good thing ) do not fight to maintain them , this journey has a purpose ,,,
and ,,, part of that purpose is this process of tossing off your defunct
thought processes and conditioning .
I brought fractal here to reveal a little something of how my mind works ,,,
I lay no valuable slide rule of what Fractal Consciousness is , or how it can be measured .
I do not describe it in full ,,, for it is best for me to Story tell it .
Gestalt is not something for me to give the reader , For Gestalt is your personal
evaluation and interpretation of the meaning of the material I lay
to lines here .
Therefore I give no finite definitive of Fractal Consciousness ,,, You'll
find it on your own ,,, I just point out that it possibly exist ,,, and depending on how you think ,,,
that alone may get you curious enough to ponder the fractal as an Ultra High
wavelength or frequency of thinking .
It's a Journey I took , a Journey that I was always on , but didn't understand that
I was .
So subtle is the travel , that you may miss the fact you've always been traveling .
But you are ,,, and if you pay attention , FEEL for it , you'll find it there by it's
You are in constant flow ,,, ever onward ,,,,it's just that ,,,if you do not keep up with
your changes ,,, you slow almost to a stop and the changes
have no chance to take effect and take you higher .
What priority have you with this span of time that you refer to as
your life span ?
What is your goal ?
I mean , what do you believe is the meaning to your life ?