20+ years ago I got divorced and lost all contact with them. Mum's choice, not mine.

I kinda did the blokey thing where I got hammered every single night (name a drug) and banged every woman with a pulse. Actually, that was a lot of fun.

Last year, I got a message via f*book - You're a Grandpa. HUH????
So I met my daughter who turned out to be a respectable young lady, and my little grandson who is very polite and well-spoken.
Then I met my youngest daughter who is - I sh*t you not supermodel material.

And I'm sitting here, looking at an empty bottle of whiskey, and I'm wondering if I could have done anything differently.

And, obviously, yes, I f*ked up royally, and I've missed out on twenty years of my childrens lives. I bet you can't hate me more than I do myself right now.

I got one that would top yours

it would tear your heart out .

The S.O.B. left his wife and three small children ( two daughters and a son who was
still in his Mommies tummy )

That's right , he left a Pregnant wife and a set of twin girls of 4 years of age

never said boo to them
never checked up on em

never sent them a dime , hell , not even a penny post card in fact

One day
The Son showed up on his Doorstep after two decades , the Son had found
his long lost Dad .

The Dad looked the Son over
asked to see the Sons I.D. to prove his Identity

He then said to the Son , you're not mine

when the Son showed the blood test
the Dad said , : " You're probably an impersonator , you're
either an F.B.I. Agent or working for them .

5 years went by

The Dad had 5 kids from his second marriage

The eldest Kid from that Marriage Murdered the Dad

For the next 12 years , the F.B.I. Investigated the Abandoned Son
from the first Marriage for a connection to the Murder as an accomplice
even though the First Son was 800 miles away , and had never talked with the Son
that Murdered his Dad for more then a few sentences .

The F.B.I. had installed tracking devices on his vehicles
Bugged his home
cost him his Jobs one after another

So , the First Son , abandoned , accused by the Dad who left him
of being a Fed Agent ,,,
Investigated for his Dads Murder even though it was clear he
was innocent , and the Son that did the Murder confessed to it and was caught with
evidence and testimony of witnesses , convicted .

Roll forward 7 years later
The Son who did the Murder got out of Prison , and was himself Murdered

Again , the F.B.I. Investigates the Abandoned son for that Murder as well

even though as before , he was 800 miles away on a Job site with witnesses
when the Murder took place .

For Five years they Tracked the First Son again

coming on his Job Sites asking his co-workers questions and asking
those co-workers to question him co-vertly for the F.B.I.

The F,B,I, Again cost him Job after Job because of their antics

Meet that Son

he is writing this

so your shit ain't shit

drop that Booze Bottle , pull up your Man Pants

and be a fucking Man

go give those Kids what you couldn't give them until now

She is giving you a second fucking chance

JUMP at it and quit your fucking sniveling

STAY off that fucking Booze

The Daughters are Important

you getting Drunk is not

and now that I gave you a real case of lost Daddy to ponder

get the fuck out of here with your Trolling shit

SCAT MUDDER FUCKER

(12-07-2015, 01:03 PM)Cynicalabsurdance Wrote:  I got one that would top yours

it would tear your heart out .

The S.O.B. left his wife and three small children ( two daughters and a son who was
still in his Mommies tummy )

That's right , he left a Pregnant wife and a set of twin girls of 4 years of age

never said boo to them
never checked up on em

never sent them a dime , hell , not even a penny post card in fact

One day
The Son showed up on his Doorstep after two decades , the Son had found
his long lost Dad .

The Dad looked the Son over
asked to see the Sons I.D. to prove his Identity

He then said to the Son , you're not mine

when the Son showed the blood test
the Dad said , : " You're probably an impersonator , you're
either an F.B.I. Agent or working for them .

5 years went by

The Dad had 5 kids from his second marriage

The eldest Kid from that Marriage Murdered the Dad

For the next 12 years , the F.B.I. Investigated the Abandoned Son
from the first Marriage for a connection to the Murder as an accomplice
even though the First Son was 800 miles away , and had never talked with the Son
that Murdered his Dad for more then a few sentences .

The F.B.I. had installed tracking devices on his vehicles
Bugged his home
cost him his Jobs one after another

So , the First Son , abandoned , accused by the Dad who left him
of being a Fed Agent ,,,
Investigated for his Dads Murder even though it was clear he
was innocent , and the Son that did the Murder confessed to it and was caught with
evidence and testimony of witnesses , convicted .

Roll forward 7 years later
The Son who did the Murder got out of Prison , and was himself Murdered

Again , the F.B.I. Investigates the Abandoned son for that Murder as well

even though as before , he was 800 miles away on a Job site with witnesses
when the Murder took place .

For Five years they Tracked the First Son again

coming on his Job Sites asking his co-workers questions and asking
those co-workers to question him co-vertly for the F.B.I.

The F,B,I, Again cost him Job after Job because of their antics

Meet that Son

he is writing this

so your shït ain't shït

drop that Booze Bottle , pull up your Man Pants

and be a fucking Man

go give those Kids what you couldn't give them until now

She is giving you a second fucking chance

JUMP at it and quit your fucking sniveling

STAY off that fucking Booze

The Daughters are Important

you getting Drunk is not

That was a part of your life I was unaware of. And you are correct, getting drunk is not important.

Unfortunately, i know exactly how you felt and how you feel...

Because from Massachusetts. where we both lived together for 7 years and married for 2 years, my wife ran away to New Jersey, about 400 miles away, with our two daughters, aged 7 and 11 at the time, with some stranger guy that she met on the internet, something that i would have been extradited and demonized and imprisoned for doing...

I was emotionally crushed and she was gone with them for around 3 years, but that guy ended up doing to her what she did to me and she moved back up here with them and i have nothing to do with my ex, but i have seen my two daughters for many years ever since, as a matter of fact, we took my 8 month old grand daughter for a walk and to have lunch yesterday...

And just for the heck of mentioning it, just for the hell of throwing it out there, the warped and twisted modern day American justice system is aimed and geared towards screwing over and financially ruining as many middle class men as possible, while wrongly supporting and over glorifying way too many lying back stabbing women, who are actually being prompted and encouraged to do so and have been for a long time now and thats just f###en wrong, for a house divided cannot stand, but from somewhere deep behind the fabricated veneer, the evil shadow government, those who are really running and controlling this greed driven insane circus, want this withering country driven down upon its bloody knees...

Something that i often wonder about, is just how many, insidiously coerced by and tricked with over rated female sex, men out there, who might not actually be the fathers of their children and within this sad reality, we probably dont really want to know the horrible truth to that terrible question, which very well may be as high as 50% who are and 50% who are not and who knows, for it may be even far worse than that, during these loveless hedonistic times that we are currently so helplessly trapped within...

And the academy award for best supporting actress in a relationship goes to...

Quote: Liar, Liar, Liar, Liar.

I'd never thought I'd find a woman like her,
Who could satisfy my needs,
She got just about everything,
Satisfaction guaranteed.

Then one day I hear from my friends
You've been cheatin' behind my back
All the times you said your gonna make it
Just to keep me off the track
Then one day she finally broke the news
She decided to tell me straight
Could I take her back, could I forgive
But I told her it's too late

Liar, Liar, Liar, Liar.

Thought she was perfection in every way
She was one to please
Then things changed, anyone could tell
It was there plain to see

Then one day I hear from my friends
You've been cheatin' behind my back
All the times you said your gonna make it
Just to keep me off the track
Then one day she finally broke the news
She decided to tell me straight
Could I take her back, could I forgive
But I told her it's too late

Liar!

wow CA, I don't even know what to say to that shitt...



but yeah, when you get a second chance like that you better take it,
and you have to get up and DO it yourself.

Hating yourself wont do anything for you, and certainly not for your close one's..
Try some love instead.

"Try some love"..?!?

Fuck, no.

Ain't going near that shit again.

The gods protect me from "love".



That said...peace, prosperity & understanding to 1 and all.

Don't know about the love, but if you like listening to music while having sex, make sure it's a live album... that way you get applause every 3 to 4 minutes.

(12-07-2015, 08:23 PM)JayRodney Wrote:  Don't know about the love, but if you like listening to music while having sex, make sure it's a live album... that way you get applause every 3 to 4 minutes.

oh that is awesome!

i did have a rotation of cd's i would play
but nothin live..
i must remember that one

(12-07-2015, 07:58 PM)Accidental Stoner Wrote:  "Try some love"..?!?

ğkk , no.

Ain't going near that shït again.

The gods protect me from "love".



That said...peace, prosperity & understanding to 1 and all.

yeah, try some love. for yourself, :)
You know, choose to be nice to yourself instead of hating the guy starring back at you in the mirror..

(12-07-2015, 08:23 PM)JayRodney Wrote:  Don't know about the love, but if you like listening to music while having sex, make sure it's a live album... that way you get applause every 3 to 4 minutes.

And pray you make it to the applause.

(12-08-2015, 02:17 AM)the white ribbon Wrote:  Self love is a hard one.. You would think it would be easy..

well.. it is if you try this, go look in the mirror at yourself and say i love you.
and if you cant, then say well why the fuck not.. eh..?

and you will tell you, if you have the guts to stay there and listen..

and then, you just address the reasons why you cant say it yet.

Good day today.
I'm kind of a rather cool, easy going guy.



Hatred cannot touch me,
harsh words do not change me.