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01-11-2016, 06:52 AM #1
Screaming Yellow Zonkers Member
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You know, with all the death I've experienced during my lifetime,on both personal and professional levels, you would think I would be used to it. Or....handle it better.....

I don't. I don't do death well at all,,and now that I'm older, and I have seen previous generations vanish, I find I have a much harder time with it.

Many of my friends deaths, have been, for various reasons, international news. This is also difficult....
Trying to mourn in the midst of a circus act, in some of these cases...., is just brutal.

This time, I'm just shell shocked. I mean she had cancer,but she's been kicking it's ass. Doctors told her in 07,she had months to live.....
She was fine last we spoke, and well no one told me she had deteriorated in the last few months.
She was my age, which is also sobering.....

and.... I just always assumed that when I went back to Japan, I would just surprise her by showing up on her doorstep, bearing gifts. I felt she was indestructible...

So she died weeks ago, and no one even emailed me to tell me. I found out tonight...

She was my roommate for ages in Japan. We shared a house that was a beauty parlour in the 50s and 60s, so it was wild. Wild times. She was in the music industry, and had even dated the emperors nephew at one point (he was crazy that guy).

We had two floors, a backyard, and it was haunted......
Unheard of for white women in Japan,to own a home like that, unless of course you're kept women, which we weren't...

I've been crying for hours, and I just dont know how to express my grief this time.
She was such an amazing person, the world is a bit dimmer without her...
I'm..... at a loss....

01-11-2016, 07:25 AM #2
Cynicalabsurdance Member
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she walked into the next level

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01-11-2016, 09:07 AM #3
JayRodney ⓐⓛⓘⓔⓝ
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The untimely loss of friends. family and pets is always difficult. Been there. A couple of my band mates offed themselves...
Those were the hardest to take, and they had their entire lives ahead of them.

01-11-2016, 09:11 AM #4
White Ribbon call me
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Far out.. Big hugs and love.xx
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01-11-2016, 09:45 AM #5
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01-11-2016, 01:33 PM #6
Screaming Yellow Zonkers Member
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Thanks... It's been an awful few days. A woman I do cat rescue with, who has helped hundreds of people and animals, literally, committed suicide a few days ago, and I finally fell asleep last night, and was awakened by my TV audio, "David Bowie has died".
I feel like crap

01-11-2016, 01:43 PM #7
JayRodney ⓐⓛⓘⓔⓝ
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And... trouble seems to come in threes. sad2.gif

01-11-2016, 01:50 PM #8
White Ribbon call me
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(01-11-2016, 01:33 PM)Screaming Yellow Zonkers Wrote:  Thanks... It's been an awful few days. A woman I do cat rescue with, who has helped hundreds of people and animals, literally, committed suicide a few days ago, and I finally fell asleep last night, and was awakened by my TV audio, "David Bowie has died".
I feel like crap

Geez, thats not good, intense shït to feel all at once..

01-11-2016, 04:58 PM #9
Ruby Wolf Member
Posts:10,786 Threads:721 Joined:Oct 2012
The big sleep, The great equalizer, The end of the beginning, Into the void, The ultimate illusion...

Relatively young still in my forties and yet i have been to over twenty wakes and funerals of family and close friends...

Each and every one of them taking the withering wind from my living sails a little more while slowly eroding away my already fractured faith...

01-11-2016, 05:08 PM #10
Accidental Stoner Member
Posts:9,102 Threads:76 Joined:Feb 2011

Sword heavy, heart worn. :(

Maybe it will be good and right and a relief
to give it all up, when you are just all out of
energy and intention.

Sad to hear of your loss.

Oh gods, I'm tired.
Deep deep inside.
01-11-2016, 05:43 PM #11
Octo Mother Superior
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Sorry to hear about your loss, SYZ.
01-11-2016, 06:42 PM #12
Coolchick Member
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it is always difficult..

sorry to hear about your friends..

time does heal.. though it is hard to see that at the time, i know..

i hope you find peace of mind..

Just Plain Nuts.
01-11-2016, 11:08 PM #13
Screaming Yellow Zonkers Member
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Thank you Kritters




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