This following missive is not intended as a survival guide
it is the rationale of an insane retired Hippie.
From Birth, i have one end destiny, my demise.
I shall live only that length of TIME, as it takes me to reach my demise,,,
and not a moment longer.
In between birth and death, i shall experience life
the last experience of that Life, is the end of that life.
Many options to the end of life.
no option as to whether it will end, that is a certain, it will indeed end.
I will, that i shall not dwell on that end, for that is NOT a quality experience of life.
I further WILL, the acceptance of the unavoidable, and set that aside, til the time arrives.
If conditions dictate, that further experience in that life, is devoid of quality of a GOOD healthy life, independent, self reliant, mobile, active in all manner of mobility and quality
Then , my logic understands, that my time between birth and death, has reached
the time to disconnect and leave this world to it's own devices.
If, a condition such as radiation poisoning arrises, and i cannot defend against it's deadly effects,,,
Then again, logic states, that i accept that condition, set my mind at ease, fend off desperation, and allow for the end to take it's course.
I can fear death,,,,
But i suppose, i much more fear how it shall come.
i cannot avoid death
i can however choose how it shall come.
Throwing up my guts on the carpet for ten days, and then dropping dead like a rock,,,
is not a choice i shall allow.