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Meth Zombies!!
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12-08-2012, 12:10 AM #16
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I tried it a couple times many years ago while living in Santa Cruz.

It was interesting rush for a bout 5 minutes then everything just seemed to go out of whack... like I was amped but off kilter. The whole night was kind of ƒükkêd up. Did not like it and it did not like me. Not something i would ever explore again! The second time i experimented with it for a couple days straight smoking it with a friend tweeked something out in me... after I went back home I couldn't sleep for 3-4 days and started speaking in tongues and freaked my mom out (not in front of her and I was never aggressive or delusional in a negative paranoid way) and ended up going to the hospital where I got a nice big dose of intravenus valium. At the time I tested clean... there was no drug in my system by then. It was like it had flipped a switch in me. I tell ya though... after that much needed valium rest and an overnight hospital stay I woke up feeling like a million bucks! I had so much energy and felt in tune with everything around me ...in addition to some very weird coincidental experiences. Many that aligned with the "trip" I was having before. I don't credit meth for it ...especially seeing as the most interesting part of the experience was after I had stopped smoking it. but it did open something up in me. Similar thing happened to me once from eating one two many pot cookies... couldn't find my sleep cycle for about a week after that. Many deep level weird experiences then too.



I did have a friend for a couple years who seemed to be able to function well on it ...but he was one of those rare people that could sleep on it and had some control.

I think one of the biggest issues is that not only are you burning the candle at like 4x speed you are missing sleep cycles which then causes the mind to become delusional and psuedo dream states start kicking in while awake which causes paranoia among other things. That and you stop taking care of yourself and you stop eating and you can now consume alcohol to extreme proportions.
12-08-2012, 12:17 AM #17
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Glad it's not just me, I hated it and yeah, took about 4 days to get my circadian rhythm back in order. Nothing too over the top other than that, but sleep is a biggie for me. No drug is more satisfying than a good nights sleep IMO.

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12-08-2012, 12:22 AM #18
Octo Mother Superior
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(12-08-2012, 12:10 AM)Anonymous Kritter Wrote:  I did have a friend for a couple years who seemed to be able to function well on it ...but he was one of those rare people that could sleep on it and had some control.


We have a friend like that. I believe people with ADD (as he's diagnosed) function differently. Speed and coffee puts him to sleep and Xanax keeps him up for days. damned.gif

Very smart and cool guy btw.
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12-08-2012, 12:28 AM #19
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(12-08-2012, 12:17 AM)JayRodney Wrote:  Glad it's not just me, I hated it and yeah, took about 4 days to get my circadian rhythm back in order. Nothing too over the top other than that, but sleep is a biggie for me. No drug is more satisfying than a good nights sleep IMO.


...by sleep cycle. I mean how sometimes you get thoughts spinning that won't quiet down? like your brain is running a program that keeps expanding continuously opening up new lines of thought?

At times I could actually see my self at the point of sleep and it was like something was kicking me back up right at that moment every time.

Typically my circadian rhythm is ƒükkêd up anyways but not so much back then.
12-08-2012, 12:36 AM #20
Octo Mother Superior
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Oh man tell me about ƒükkêd up circadian rhythm. sad2.gif I think I have to start a separate thread about it.
12-08-2012, 12:41 AM #21
JayRodney ⓐⓛⓘⓔⓝ
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BTDT, it takes it's toll. Moving to Finland where it's perpetually dark from mid November to the first of March gets me all kinds of out of whack. As soon as Octo's out of school we're outta here. I really miss Florida this time of year.

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12-08-2012, 12:46 AM #22
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(12-08-2012, 12:22 AM)Octo Wrote:  
(12-08-2012, 12:10 AM)Anonymous Kritter Wrote:  I did have a friend for a couple years who seemed to be able to function well on it ...but he was one of those rare people that could sleep on it and had some control.


We have a friend like that. I believe people with ADD (as he's diagnosed) function differently. Speed and coffee puts him to sleep and Xanax keeps him up for days. damned.gif

Very smart and cool guy btw.

Hmm...

<diagnosed adult ADD(non-hyper version)

Was on ritalin for a couple years long time ago. They wanted to give me an amphetamine but I said HELL NO!! ritalin had some wonderous kinds of effect for my attention... I could just plow through a book with out having to stop and back track every few paragraphs... but over time it seemed to have a kind of "stagnating" effect on me. It was taking something away from my true nature ...my natural "fluctuation". Never really had any other side effects though and no withdraw.

I realize now that my attention mostly seems to be dependent on my interest or other factors. I am capable of extreme focus but casual focus is not always an easy thing for me. Something I struggle with... something that forces me to have to error correct and delay many of my textual interactions. Perhaps I try to cram to much into what I am trying to say? ...still figuring myself out. So many variables.

...however when i do find my flow sometimes I amaze myself to the point of damned.gif. Makes me regret not being able to be that capable all the time. Perhaps something missing in my personal equation?
12-08-2012, 12:55 AM #23
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Doesn't seem that there is anything missing from your personal equation as far as I can see. cheers.gif People that are awake to one degree or another are often self critical; it just goes with the territory.

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12-08-2012, 01:12 AM #24
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(12-08-2012, 12:55 AM)JayRodney Wrote:  Doesn't seem that there is anything missing from your personal equation as far as I can see. cheers.gif People that are awake to one degree or another are often self critical; it just goes with the territory.


You didn't see the amount of error correction and rewording and inserts that went into that simple post or the previous ones!

Can sometimes put a serious lag into my communication ability.

I can let go "raw" which i do sometimes but then it can get sloppy and can be somewhat incoherent.

Timing is often so critical when it comes to engaging people on forums ...got to be able to keep up when you have peoples attention and carry on group converstations while at the same time being able to express complex thought forms textually.

can be a bit of processor load on the old noggin ...especially if one is a bit of a perfectionist.
12-08-2012, 01:18 AM #25
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(12-08-2012, 12:22 AM)Octo Wrote:  
(12-08-2012, 12:10 AM)Anonymous Kritter Wrote:  I did have a friend for a couple years who seemed to be able to function well on it ...but he was one of those rare people that could sleep on it and had some control.


We have a friend like that. I believe people with ADD (as he's diagnosed) function differently. Speed and coffee puts him to sleep and Xanax keeps him up for days. damned.gif

Very smart and cool guy btw.


Actually, I know a small handful of guys who can handle it.
Also know an old speedster, who is one of the kindest, most
non-bothersome characters I ever saw ;)
Exceptions to the rule?

But I have never seen anything good come out of that sheit, no.
Except maybe for the real psychonauts, able to move on.
12-08-2012, 01:24 AM #26
Octo Mother Superior
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(12-08-2012, 01:12 AM)Anonymous Kritter Wrote:  Timing is often so critical when it comes to engaging people on forums ...got to be able to keep up when you have peoples attention and carry on group converstations while at the same time being able to express complex thought forms textually.

can be a bit of processor load on the old noggin ...especially if one is a bit of a perfectionist.


Jeez, no pressure or anything... damned.gif

Or just get drunk and ramble a bit. We're only human and we have to have a sense of humor to wade through this thing called life if we care about keeping some sort of sanity.
12-08-2012, 01:25 AM #27
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(12-08-2012, 12:46 AM)Anonymous Kritter Wrote:  .../
I realize now that my attention mostly seems to be dependent on my interest or other factors. I am capable of extreme focus but casual focus is not always an easy thing for me. Something I struggle with... something that forces me to have to error correct and delay many of my textual interactions. Perhaps I try to cram to much into what I am trying to say? ...still figuring myself out. So many variables.

Sounds pretty much like a healthy, normal human. cheers.gif

Aren't we all figuring ourselves out until the end?

Another fractal hint from the universe:

Creation is an ever ongoing thing.







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12-08-2012, 01:43 AM #28
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(12-08-2012, 01:24 AM)Octo Wrote:  
(12-08-2012, 01:12 AM)Anonymous Kritter Wrote:  Timing is often so critical when it comes to engaging people on forums ...got to be able to keep up when you have peoples attention and carry on group converstations while at the same time being able to express complex thought forms textually.

can be a bit of processor load on the old noggin ...especially if one is a bit of a perfectionist.


Jeez, no pressure or anything... damned.gif

Or just get drunk and ramble a bit. We're only human and we have to have a sense of humor to wade through this thing called life if we care about keeping some sort of sanity.


I can hardly post at all while drunk!! ...buzzed maybe but drunk! ...it all just turns into mush!
12-08-2012, 01:53 AM #29
Octo Mother Superior
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I guess what I'm trying to say is we perform the best with a relaxed mind. All major scientific discoveries have been made by relaxed minds. Think about it.

Don't stress over your perceived shortcomings, you're doing just fine even if you made even half the sense you're making.
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12-08-2012, 02:00 AM #30
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...I know.

I need to take a more relaxed approach.

Engaging people in this form just doesn't always feel as natural as it does to many other people.

It does feel like alot of pressure most of the time and I don't exactly feel like I am the same as everyone else and I often criticism too personally. I also lack the motivation to "blend in" with everyone else merely for the sake of conversation ...there has to be real substance for me to engage. I typically don't just chatter for the sake of making friends ...which I suppose is why I have never really paved an known identity on the forums all these years.

What comes easy for others not so easy for me.

I have also become a RL recluse in my old age and not so sociable as I once was so I suppose I lack the practice of normal human engagement.



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