Sorry I haven't checked in on you today - I have had a really bad unfortunate thing happen to me this afternoon after training (obviously nothing anywhere near as bad as the things you are facing, and I am not going to derail the thread/bore everybody by detailing it here) :-)
In my heart I want to ask you to not do the second round of chemo. .... but that first round gave you a few days of thinking and breathing space which enabled us to bring supplies to you, to visit you, and for people to learn about your story, and made ir possible for you to start your alternative regimen.
So - maybe the second round of chemo might give you a bit MORE time.....but then again chemo kills ALL cells - healthy or cancerous. So maybe you had a "lucky" escape with the first lot and who knows what the second may do.
It is a hard thing to advise on. You are sounding so good, and seem to be really giving this cancer a damn good thrashing, compared to a few weeks ago I suppose I am frightened that the chemo may weaken you and then you will become ill due to associated risks.
You gave me a hug when I arrived and when I left, and that was NOT the hug of a weak, dying man. You have so much strength in you, it is difficult to advise you to make a decision that to be honest, either options have the chance of weakening you.
If you take the chemo, you have a chance of some extra time (is there a chance at all, even slight, of any remission hopes if you try the chemo?) but you also run the risk of being weakened, being susceptible to literally dying from a common Cold if your immune system gets fkd by the chemo, and feeling ill from the chemo as well as ill from the cancer.
If you don't take the chemo, you have the chance of continuing to use the alternative meds, and if successful you can give a massive two finger salute to the medical community who doubted you, as well as the knowledge that you did it and that you are living proof that it is possible. Or on the other hand if it is not effective, the cancer will spread and take you. But at least you will be ill from the cancer itself and not the chemo on top of that.
Hell. I don't know.
We just want you to live.
And REALLY live.
"My life consists of swinging around on poles, using billion dollar satellites to find tupperware hidden in the woods, overdosing on Mighty Boosh, Monty Python and Reeves & Mortimer, eating, working, and occasionally attempting to be an adult"