I am picturing you healthy!
Visualisation really does work; I know it sounds woo-woo to a lot of people, but it works. If you believe something ENOUGH, then outer reality, including the cells of your body, rearranges itself to match your conviction. When it fails, it's because people don't know enough about how it operates.
For instance, affirmations often don't work, because you're reciting them in a slightly tense, artificial way. You have to be in a relaxed, daydreamy kind of frame of mind. I've found that what works best of all is to imagine telling someone you know about the thing. "I got that job! The interview went great, in fact I enjoyed it, we ended up talking about Usain Bolt!" Because when you imagine talking to a friend, you're relaxed, happy, at ease, and it's easy to picture it, and make it come alive with details.
Then, you have to act "as if" the thing has happened. Like, if you want more money, spend an extra few pounds on what makes you *feel* wealthy. Buy the more expensive coffee; do what you can to act 'as if.'
And to make a thing physically materialise, you have to DO something physical, take a tiny step towards it. If you want to move house, physically act *as if* you're about to move; clear out stuff, start packing.
In the interest of truthfulness, I have to say it can go wrong sometimes. I once had what I thought was the clever idea of imagining going to the ATM, and the screen showing a lot of money, like 'Amount available: £40,000', or something. Hahaha. This actually happened. But it was a bank error! The bank were on the phone early next day, Saturday morning, saying panickily 'We've mistakenly credited a large amount to the account, please do not touch it, we are going to remove it!'
But anyway, it works.
I visualise you putting on weight, every day feeling a bit better and stronger, more colour coming back to your face, smiling, going out somewhere again for the first time. (If you like, we could add: you on a chat show, being interviewed by someone - Jonathan Ross, leaning forward with a respectfully fascinated expression? :) - after your book 'My amazing story', remained for ten weeks at the top of the bestseller list).
There are a lot of places selling biodynamic fruit + veg in London: this page makes you want to run to Crystal Palace market:
and another great one: they are at Bermondsey every Saturday from 9am to 3pm.
.... but I'm having trouble finding ones that deliver boxes to SE10!
So those ones above would have to wait till you're mobile.
This one, I don't know if they've got biodynamic, but they do deliver to your area.
These people also deliver to S. London, and you can add organic cheese, eggs, etc, to the box.
By the way, there is a place, sounds a bit chi-chi, "The Greenwich Pantry", with biodynamic food, but I couldn't find out any more, as their site wouldn't work on my phone, but you could google them sometime?
Another nice London - delivering one: